Really, I Mean It...

Salam...

I read someone's Twitter post... And really, my heart don't hurt nor palpitate nor stop nor beat faster... It beats as normal as ever. I think, I've changed.

Not to say that I'm tired of waiting... I just don't want to expect too much... As long as this guy is happy... But I'm not sure if he's truly content now either...

5 is the most beautiful number. Like I said, you won't have a perfect hand if it doesn't have 5 fingers. But I guess it can't be helped if one day some of the fingers have to be removed... Of course, at first it'll feel awkward and you'll regret about a lot of things. But as time goes by, you'll learn to accept your defect and just live with it...

But of course, their case is different. But still, there are some similarities... They hurt and they feel like they've been missing things important to them. HoMin looks fine now but like I said, I'm not sure if they've been hiding their truest feeling behind those calm facade. And to me, Jaejoong is scary... I think someone mentioned it before in an interview... Jaejoong is like a bomb... He just 'explodes' and say whatever he thinks... There's positive and negative effect of that, too. Not saying I like it, not saying I hate it either. There's truth in his words but unless I see how this guy responds with what Jae said, I won't be too happy...

Really, this guy means a lot to me. And no, he's not a family, not my husband, not my boyfriend, not my friend, not my neighbour, not my teacher, not my student, not the King of my country, but he's very important to me.

The End.